This perfect little firecracker...
Has had a really hard time adjusting and today it really had me upset, a sad upset. Gracie and I had given Baby Reese a bath...besides G's support in throwing all blankets and burp clothes that were in her reach into the tub, it went great. While I was drying Reese off in the bathroom, G went ahead of me into Reese's room and climbed onto Reese's changing table. OK not a problem, besides me freaking out mentally thinking what if she would have pulled it onto herself during "the climb"... I got her off and put the baby up there. Gracie normally likes to climb up the side of the changing table between Reese and I and just hang out while I get Reese dressed. Today however she decided to climb up the other side and just whack at Reese with whatever chance she could, even if it meant her falling off and get her body stuck in the sides pinching her arms and making her cry. She was bound and determined to hit little Reese today. After getting a hold of Reese's new bracelet Jax had just made for Reese yesterday and ruining it, and 5 attempts at whacking Reese I kinda lost it, even raised my voice and was mad, dropped a few $#@%'s and a couple &*%$'s. I put her in her room while I finished dressing Reese...G pounded on the door and threw a great tantrum. I realized it was her nap time and down she went happily with a bottle.
I'm learning this "2 babies at one-time" thing still... its hard. It makes me sad that I can't make both of my beautiful girls happy all the time. I'm sad that Gracie and my one-on-one time is no longer. Although I'm very grateful for Reese, I know its hard on Gracie. So for when Gracie is older and reads this blog of our family, I want her to know this...
Dear Gracie,
Momma loves you very much. You make me so happy with all your crazy, devil like moods. You are so very smart and it always amazes me all the things you know what to do and how to do. You are so funny... you make our meal time full of laughter which makes our home, OUR home. You are so sweet with your cuddles and kisses. I never pass up the chance to feel your head on my shoulder. Its one of my favorite feelings.
Your determination and stubborn traits, which frustrate me, make you, you. One day those same traits will get you where you want to be in life. Whether it be a furious Roller Derby Girl, or the CEO of a huge corporation...your personality traits are killer and will help you succeed in life.
You are 16 months old now... I've been so blessed to be apart of your life for 9 of those months, and could pee my pants with excitement for all the adventures that I will do with you, but even more grateful that I won't miss any of your mile stones.
In our child roster, you are my 2nd baby of 3...that puts you in the middle, which to me, means you are in the middle of my heart. Please know that you are such a huge part of our family and are so very missed when you are gone. To me you are more precious than rubies...
I love you Gracie Girl...for ever and always my Gracie you'll be.
Love,
Momma
This is so sweet! Can't wait to meet that little firecracker. I'm so glad you're happy and you have a darling family.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what is wrong with me, but your posts are making me cry. They are so tender and sweet. It's hard to find a balance with your kids. I still feel like I can't give Kamree the one on one time she deserves since Mr. Myles arrived.
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